2. No sympathy.

Don't pity me.
My life is wonderful.
I am me and thats what I will always be.
Ya heard?

My night

I feel sooooooooo stupid!!
Gone with the Wind was playing at the Orpheum tonight. I missed out!
Rocky Horror Picture Show will be showing next friday if anyone wants to go.
Hockey season starts soon!
I love the Cardinals and Albert Pujols.
I watched the 3rd Mummy movie. It was kinda corny, but kept my attention. lol.
I didn't study one bit. Oh well.
Ate some peanut butter pie. Yum.


Thats about it.
:)

1.

I realized I am the girl in the movies in the background that you feel sorry for because she is alone and looking awkward.

Tired of the hum drum of my life.

How many times?

I really never know what to write about.
Really I don't think anyone hardly reads this thing. lol.
Ashley I need to add your new blog.
Ladies. I need to send you the 500 days of summer, but I can't until I work this weekend and make money to buy the cds. Sorry I am so slow on that.
I went to Chattanooga this weekend. Had a lot of fun.
Met a guy...
lol.
I won't get my hopes up though.
I am reconnecting with people I never thought I would ever again. No. Not that person. That person can really go to a special place where they can't hurt anyone ever again.
Tomorrow is friday. I am pretty excited about it.
I wish I could go on a trip to see friends instead of working, but you gotta do what you gotta do.
I want to go see Phantom of the Opera in St. Louis. Don't think it will happen.
I went out paddle boating with classmates today.
It was a blast.
That is all I have to say.

THanks.

Wondering.

Why didn't I come to Chattanooga for school?
Dumbass me.

Freak out.

I realized I am a bit dramatic about things.
I also realized that I am one of the meanest people I have ever met to myself.
I am always looking at my faults, always pointing them out. At the end of the day I don't give myself a pat on the back. Instead I say, wow self, you really blew that one. Or you had the entire day and you only got through one thing. Needless to say I act as though I hate myself, when I should love myself. No one else will until I figure out how I can.

Question

Why do you have to learn things by being embarrassed? Isn't there an easier way?

I think its awesome.

For those of you who saw 500 Days of Summer you probably saw the preview for Adam.
I am very excited about this movie.
It shows how a person with Aspergers will come across to others and that it just takes a little change of thought to understand them.
All the more reason why I love OT.
It has opened up my eyes to a world I have never seen before.
It makes it beautiful.

N.o.w.

This week was craaaaaaaazy.
Little sleep, tests, projects, woodworking, assignments.
I am sitting here after woodworking with a headache because the fumes from the stain got to me.
Im not complaining though, it was fun.
I love OT.
It has changed my life and I am not even one yet.

Tomorrow Aud, Ash, Maggie, and I will be walking in the Elvis 5k for Cerebral Palsy.
Early, but should be fun.
Probably the highlight of my weekend.
I miss you friends and hope that you are doing wonderful.

Hey. I am happy.

I lost 6 pounds.
Yay!
Its amazing how exercise has completely altered my mood.

Hmm.

I hate it when I study 7 hours for an exam and leave it feeling like CRAP!
UGH!
How did I even make it this far?
I don't know what is wrong with me.
I need a mental health day. Seriously.

Sometimes...

I look at other people's pictures and get sad.
They are experiencing so much that I wish I could.
Love mostly.
I wonder what people think when they look at my pictures...
Wow she has put on weight or wow she is always single.
I don't know. Maybe I don't want to. I hope they are all good thoughts.
Because with or without love I enjoy my life.
Each day I get through it is a blessing.

Boys and Girls.

Weird.

Yay!

Finally bougth the Ingram Hill cd again. Lol. Its been forever since I have listened to them. LOVE it!

Fly.

"I want to let go and know that I will be alright."

If anyone else ever tells me I can't do something. I will prove them wrong.
I will be fine on my Level II fieldwork. I know I won't be by my family and friends. I know I will get sad sometimes, but I see this as an adventure.

Bridezillas

I was watching Bridezillas tonight and it just really really made me angry. I hate how the women think that its quite alright to just be horribly rude to their fiance. I know I have very little experience in the relationship field, but I was always taught to not try to put the ones you love down. It makes me mad whenever I see anyone putting down their boyfriend or girlfriend. It's probably a pet peeve. It happens more than you think it would. I know we all have our bad days, but come on. I guess Bridezillas is the extreme of relationship abuse. I just hope if and when I ever get into a relationship with a guy my purpose is to not make his life miserable. I hope it's to make him happy.

Gosh that show really burns me up!
lol.

Bye.

Word of wisdom.

If you are depressed go work out. Even if it is just a walk around the park. You will feel so much better. I am telling you those endorphins are amazing.

Oh save me!

We read a case study today about a 70 year old lady who never married, never had children, lived alone, and was severly depressed. I kept think "I hope that is not me in the future." I really hope it's not. Things are NOT the way I thought they would be or dreamed they would be when I was a teenager. I really thought by now I would be at least engaged and have a job. At that time I had never even heard of Occupational Therapy. I guess it is my love right now. There is no chance of me meeting anyone right now. I just hope I haven't missed the boat. I know there are people who never have significant other and are fine with it. I don't think I would be. Sooner or later I want to meet him. I also hope that it isn't true that you only get one love in your life. Because what I thought was love might not have been.

A Tribute to Love.

Joanna+Mark...

You are eachothers spark...

in the night sky that is dark...

when its cold in the park. Banana.

Best poem I have ever written.

Walk/Run

There are a lot of 5k walks and runs going on in Memphis for very good causes. Let me know if you want to go!

Also! The Orpheum is playing a lot of good old movies on friday, saturday, and sundays!!

Studying is my life.

Today I am supposed to study about 10-12 hours. Tomorrow, the same.
Two exams on monday.
But I am in grad school and that is what you do when you are in grad school.
Stop the world, I want to get off.