well...

I am trying to post on people's blogs, but this thing won't let me...It says choose a profile...well, I don't have one of those so it won't let me. help.

I want to go to:

Maine, California, New York, New Mexico, Oregon, North Carolina, and....that's it for now.
I hope to make these trips with the boyfriend and friends.

I am going to plan a trip to Germany within the next three years. I also would like to go to Rome. Even if I have to save every penny and work over-time these trips will happen.

I am moving to Nashville after graduation and the boards. I hope I find a job I love and can learn a lot from. I think I want to work in a rehab hospital, but I will let you know after my pediatrics rotation. I love kids, lets see if I love them enough to work with them.

I am going to go to a pumpkin patch tomorrow with my friend Stephanie. It should be a hoot.

weird

I kind of want to see Skyline...I want to see if we whoop alien butt.
I do  not, however want to see Saw or Paranormal Activity. That shiz is just nuts.

I do not like jelly beans. I thought I did. They make my stomach hurt. That goes for all gummies.
I am trying to practice self-control. It is going well. I teach it to my patients so you would think I need to work on it as well.
Boop.

I don't speak Spanish.

One of my clients speaks Spanish and I understand her better than some of my English speaking folks.

I got dizzy for no reason today. I feel weak...possibly anemia. Only a blood test will tell.

Ready for Friday...I get to go see a  bunch of plantations this weekend. Let hope it works out that way. I will find the best one to take Joanners and anyone else that visits me to.

I found a song...

That really is how I feel about my relationship with Stephen. I am so glad that there are second chances and I am so lucky to be with him.

OneRepublic- "All This Time"

Take all the time lost
All the days that I cost
Take what I took and give it back to you

All this time
We were waiting for each other
All this time
I was waiting for you
We got all these words
Can't waste them on another
So I'm straight in a straight line
Running back to you

I don't know what day it is
I had to check the paper
I don't know the city
But it isn't home
But you say I'm lucky to love something that loves me
But I'm torn as I could be wherever I roam
Hear me say
All this time we were waiting for each other
All this time I was waiting for you
We got all these words
Can't waste them on another
So I'm straight in a straight line
Running back to you

I wish.

I had a roommate or that someone could live with me until I leave here. I am lonely as hell. THIS SUCKS. 

Monday.

Today was the beginning of week 4 of Fieldwork....which means...8 weeks left.
I am too tired to take Athena for a walk, but I can't disappoint her.
Both my groups went well.
I am ready to go to bed right now.
I want some company.

This week I am making...

Hamburger Soup:

 

















and...Pumpkin Bread:

Weekend.

Stephen called me last night. He said he was sad he could not make it to the wedding because he wanted to dance with me...that is so sweet.

I caught the boquet  last night, which doesn't mean I am the next one...hehe. I was just shocked as hell to catch something. If any of you know me I run away when things are thrown at me. haha.

I have to go back to Louisiana today. I am sad. I want to stay home. But...I will be getting company in 26 or so days. JOANNA!

I am too tired to drive 6 hours. Wish me luck. I hate driving long distances.

In the mean time I will keep my chin up and move forward.

By the way...I conquered my ghosts last night.

Well.

I am kind of sad, people. I hate this long distance thing. 6 more months. IT SUCKS.

I know its not forever and I am probably just at a low point right now.

He is busy and I am kinda busy....This fieldwork isn't as INTENSE as my last one where I would go into work at 6, leave at 4, take a 2 hour nap, eat, then go to sleep. lol.

I will get over it, probably tomorrow.

I get to go home tomorrow. I can't wait to get a hug.

Love.

Yes siree!

My boyfriend is cute.
There I said it.

I am happy.

I am really enjoying my time here. I am lucky to have at least one friend in Baton Rouge. I think we are going to plantations in two weeks. I am on my own tomorrow because my supervisor has the day off. Wish me luck. I hope my groups go well. I am about to go running on a cardio trail I found yesterday. I want to be like Ashley and run 11 miles. lol. That may never happen, but I can dream can't I?

Cleaning the house, grocery shopping, walking the dog, paperwork. That is my day today.
Weeee!

Lata!

Long Distance.

I am getting used to being alone all the time. It's not that big of a deal, however I do get sad from time to time. I wish I could just teleport to Stephen or my friends. I wont forget about anybody. I promise.

movie.

I would like to see It's Kind of A Funny Story.

Where I work:

It is beautiful.

Please come visit me.

No time like the present.

To face some of my ghosts.
It will happen eventually.
Lets hope I can do some deep breathing and relaxation techniques.
It isn't about me anyway.
It's about love.
Love. Love. Love is all you need.

Truth.

It's not about making things centered around you. It's about enjoying the people your with and being in the company of good friend and good people.
Things may happen to you that you can't control. People may say and do awful things to you that take you years to get over. The truth is it does not matter. Forgive, and never forget. But while you are not forgetting remember to never lose your faith in people and yourself because of one bad egg. Not everyone is going to be a complete jerk. Keep your chin up and do your best to be someone better than they ever will be.

Ramblings of a once bitter girl.

End.

Boop

If I go to something I have to see someone that I have tried to never see again.

Why is it that you always have to see the people you want to avoid the most?

Darn it.

Wee!

New roommates moving in today for a week. :)

Cooking.

Tomorrow I will be cooking Turkey chili. I will let you know how it goes.
I went to Baton Rouge today to visit a friend from undergrad. I am really glad that I have someone here that is awesome to hang out with. I would probably go crazy with boredom. I am trying to exercise everyday and take the puppy for walks. I am also trying to drink water all the time.

I went to the top of the capitol building today. I was waiting for my friend to get off work and went up to the top by myself. It was very beautiful.

I hope I don't talk as much as this girl on How I Met Your Mother. Geez!

I like:



What I am up to.

I moved into the student house at my fieldwork site in Lousiana. When I first got here I was scared out of my mind. For those who visit me you will understand, but this place is really not bad at all. It is beautiful. The house is a work in progress, but the surroundings are amazing.

I am meeting a lot of wonderful people. It is amazing how your mind can turn on you just like that. I have had so many conversations with clients that I never even thought I would have. I am enjoying my time here and will make the best of it.

Stephen left yesterday. This past week was the longest time we were together in four years. It was amazing. I know I want to marry that man some day.

Athena is doing great. We changed her name it Big Tina!

Why are there so many previews of freaking scary movies?  I really don't like it.

Tomorrow I am going tailgating with a friend for the LSU vs UT game. It should be fun!

today

ugh. I am done with fried food.

Stephen is the greatest boy friend ever. I love him.

Nine Days Until MY birthday.

I will be 24 in 9 days.
23 was a good age.
I finally got the guts to love the man I have been waiting for.
I started fieldwork and learned that I am awesome. Yes. Its true.
As long as you keep learning and growing you are awesome in my book.
I learned finally to love what you have while you have it.
I also learned that you have to be happy with who you are and stop trying to please people or try to get their attention.
I have wonderful friends in my life that I would not trade for the world.
I faced my fear of heights and climbed a rock face. Big moment for me. haha.
I lived in a place I have never been before by myself and did well despite being alone.
I learned so much about myself this year.
I used to think that if I could write a book about myself no one would want to read it. Maybe it is still true to others, but I think there would be a few laughs, tears, and lessons learned.
Life is an amazingly wonderful learning experience.

Dear weather

Please chill out.
Thanks,

Kathleen

recap

Last night was amazing. My parent made porksteaks and apple pie. I remembered once again why I love home so much. When I walked in all my dogs were excited to see me. Only dogs get that excited.

I am done at Cardinal Hill at this point, but it does not feel real. I will miss it.
I spent the weekend with amazing people and my wonderful boyfriend. I am so glad he is coming with me to Louisiana until my birthday. Dropping his life so he can come set me up for 3 months of fieldwork. That is love.

We are leaving Thursday night to drive to Birmingham, AL. We decided to split up the trip because it is a 9-10 hour drive. Birmingham is the biggest city we will pass by so we will stop there. Then head to Louisiana. I think we will check out BR and New Orleans during the weekend. It will be fun. YAY!

For now I will just be happy being here with the parents and doggies.

Love.

My story.

Two weeks from this past monday I will be the girl living in Louisiana working at a Mental Health Facility with her dog. What adventures can we get into? I know not. Hopefully there wont be some serial killer lurking around. This is why I need visitors so come visit if you can! I have no issue with being alone any more. It must mean I like myself. I will post pictures of my adventures as they come and go.

Lata.

More learning.

I am learning that life is not about waiting for something to happen to you. Your life is what you make it. Seriously. It's true.

Best Weekend Ever.

This weekend was probably the best I have had in a while.
I got to spend it with the boyfriend and two wonderful friends. And...I did not have to worry about school work or homework or ANYTHING for that matter. That is a first I must say. Now I have the cutest puppy laying next to me. At this moment life is good.

I have one more week left at CH. I am going to miss it. It was hard work because this fieldwork has tested me more than I ever thought it would. I am confident in my abilities and know that I can do this. I am going to miss all the people that helped me along the way. I will never forget my patients, especially the ones who inspire me and help me learn, well thats all of them.

I am ready to get home and see my parents and my dogs. I wish my sister would be there too. I get to see her in December.

I am bringing Athena on my adventure to Louisiana. Thank God for that because I would probably lose my mind and become so lonely I couldn't stand it. Stephen and I are going to have a little adventure and visit New Orleans and Baton Rouge and celebrate my birthday. wee! Come visit if you can!

Love.

Today Today.

good.

Life flashing before my eyes.

I swear to Buddha that PEOPLE CAN'T DRIVE in this city!
I was on my way to UK to observe acute care. I was happily driving when a bus decides to turn in front of me out of no where. I swerved into oncoming traffic to avoid it...almost causing a wreck. It shook me up really bad. I said a few choice words and thanked the heavens that I was ok.

Since then it has just been a crap day/ A-hole day.

There are too many people at the library and its annoying.

I am just in a pissed off mood.

bye.

And...I am making these.

And....

I love this man.

for the love of pete.

I seriously get along better with pleasantly crazy individuals.

I watched Eat. Pray. Love. last night.
At first I was wondering where the story was going to go. I was thinking ok...so you go on a long trip and poof! There is happiness. Naw...it's not that easy.

One thing that she said really stuck with me. I can't remember the exact quote but it was something like: "From failure and ruin comes transformation." I learned from that you can't be afraid to fail. You can't be so terried to make a mistake that you are stuck being a person you hate. I will admit I am a basket case at times. I need to learn to let the little things go and breathe once in a while.

I also learned that I like material things way too much. The only thing that is really worth having is the love of amazing people and to have the desire to do something with your life. Everything else is kind of insignificant. Sure, I want a nice house and nice things, but all of it is useless without someone to come home to or someone to call you and ask how you are doing from time to time.

I have seen people at their worst. I have seen people in the hospital who have cared so much about nonsense rather than spending time learning to love other people. It's those people who are left alone in their rooms waiting. It makes me sad and I do my best to look after them. I even try to find out their favorite past time and incorporate it into therapy. I want to make a difference and prove to people that it's never too late to love.

Today was a day like every day.

My parents left to go to Yellowstone.
My mom asked if I just wanted to ditch fieldwork and go with them. I was tempted, but I am even more tempted to do what my sis says and "Make this fieldwork my b*tch". haha.

I learned how to sew today. It is fun. Maybe one day I will get as good as my grandma.

I got a new ipod Shuffle because I lost mine. weee.

Tomorrow I am going to Louisville. All I gots to say is there better be cupcakes when I get there.

jk.

Bye.

Relaxing weekend.

I got into St. Louis last night. I got lost because my phone died and so did my GPS. I figured it out because I am resourceful. haha.

Today I get to see my parents. It has been two months.

I am half way done with my first fieldwork.

I am excited to move to Nashville in less than a year and live closer to the boyfriend.

He is coming with me on my next rotation for the first couple of days to Louisiana. We are going exploring.

I am excited to be around my family. They make me feel good about myself.

My Grandmas dog has been getting a lot of attention from me because I haven't seen one in quite some time.

I am stopping in Louisville on my way back. It should be a nice rest break from all the corn fields! haha.

Almost done with Lexington. I like it, but I don't think it's where I want to end up.

My sister is happier than she has ever been. I am happy for her. She deserves it after all the bullshit she has been through.

Good day to you.

What I learned today.

If a person becomes frustrated and says really rude things it is probably because they are going through a lot.

You never have it as bad as you think you do.

Talking loud in a quiet library is NOT ok.

It is easier to get out of a bed when it is not elevated.

I like cheese way too much.

My mom is pretty much the greatest woman I know.

Me and cranky older ladies get along.

Keep smiling through the day. You will make someone elses.

Some people just aren't worth the time.

I am not a waste of time.

See everything as a learning opportunity and a chance to grow.

I am proud to be going into OT.

Up in the air.

I am now up to five patients. Getting another one tomorrow.

This job really does make me thankful for all that I have. I meet so many different people.

Whats new...

I am a big girl now, people!

Holy cow.

I have 4 patients of my very own all with different diagnoses. I am four weeks in and still learning so much every day. Lexington is not that bad of a city, but I don't think I want to live here forever. It is a horse town. Horses everywhere! It would have been a dream when I was 7 because I was into horseback riding...now...kinda scared. I would do it again though if I had a helmet. Speaking of which people don't have to wear helmets here while riding motorcycles...can we say Traumatic Brain Injury? No thanks.

The people I am staying with are extremely nice. Nicer than nice...just wonderful. If you met them you would think the same thing. It's funny because before I met them I was scared to move in with people I did not know. I got lucky with this one.

Stephen is coming into town tonight. I am going to show him the sights.

Two more months to go. Lets see what I can discover about myself and this place.

Come visit if you dare. Friends are always welcome.

Miss everyone.

Till next time.

-Kat

Day 3

Today is day 3 of fieldwork and I am surviving. It was only orientation, but it was rough. lol. It really is not that bad. Come visit!

Changes

I love the Train song: "If it's love"

I am moving to Lexington, KY on Sunday. I start Fieldwork on Monday June 28th.
So nervous. I don't even know how to prepare.

Audrey got a job in Washington. She will be working for a company called Big Fish Games. She is moving there this week.

Everything seems to be happening so fast. It makes me think of that quote "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans." It is very true. I am happy, sad, excited. I realized that I struggle with change.I need to see it as an adventure rather than something I am scared to death about. I have a great support system. Couldn't ask for better family and friends.

Wish me luck. I need it.

storm.

I only wish that I could look at the bright side of things.
Headed to STL tomorrow then WA on Monday. Should be a wonderful trip.
Possibly seeing the Cardinals play sunday...we will see.
I never really have anything interesting to say on here.

I am starting to use the Livestrong website. They allow you to count your calories, exercise, record water intake, and track your weight. I am a visual person so it helps me to see my progress. It is only day one. It is 7:13pm and all I can have the rest of the night is an apple or water. I have already had all my calories...I am not going to be obsessed about this. I just want to feel better. The things I eat are not good for me. They make me sluggish and moody. I am never going to be a size 4or even a size 6. I just want to be healthy. I am lucky to have a wonderful man in my life that thinks I am beautiful when I feel like a beached whale.

Anyway...I want to start being crafty but have no clue what I am good at. Oh well.

I am going on a trip.

I am going somewhere that has a lot of nature. Somewhere beautiful. I need it before 9 months of Fieldwork. Want to go?

Everything is happening so fast.

I have two more days of classes left, one huge research presentation, and my Professional Development Evaluations to complete.

Then...I am done until fieldwork in June.

I am terrified. Completely terrified.

Every little bit helps

I want to help the flood victims.
I am collecting clothing to take to the Millington Crisis Center from my classmates. I hope they participate.

Even when you think things are bad for you be greatful for what you do have. Some people have lost everything. It just seems like its not a big deal to the rest of the country, but it is.

I am so nervous!

OH MY GOSH.
I will be starting my first Level II Fieldwork in June. HOLY CRAP.
It is just hitting me.
I will be treating patients. I will be like a real OT.
I am graduating in a year!
AHHHH!
This is all too real right now.

Random Question

Has anyone every heard of an adaptation on an Ipod for someone who is visually impaired?

The run down.

There is only one word for last week...crazy.
School is on the downward slope which means everything is due.

I can check two things off my list for spring/summer:
Sit on a porch and drink lemonade.
Eat frozen ice cream with friends on a bench.

Yeah I know, very simple, but it is the simple things in life.

Now I want to go float down a river in a canoe or on a inner tube.
Who is with me?

TN storms keep me up all night.

I cry at the drop of a hat.

Things are really getting me down lately. I don't understand why some people have to be so stupid. I don't understand why they can't see they are digging themselves into a hole until they are at the bottom looking up and saying "Hey! Get me out of here." Your problems are not my problems. I have enough as it is thank you. I have been crying at almost anything sad. Even Oprah makes me cry. I don't know what it is. I hope it stops. Maybe I am just being a girl. I don't know. School is winding down. We have a lot to do. I am nervous about fieldwork. I am really glad that I get to live with the soon to be Sheltons for three months of fieldwork. I hope I don't annoy them or make them hate me. I will be on my best behavior. I am glad I am living with friends the first Fieldwork because I get really homesick. It makes it easier when you have people around you that you love. Money is stressing me out. I only have $20 to my name and am now using a credit card to pay for expenses. I have been hearing my parents talk about how bad credit cards are for years that it makes me sick to my stomach that I have to use one. I will be responsible about it. I envy anyone that does not have financial problems. That is my little story of worries. Things are not bad. They are not perfect, but life is not perfect. I am still happy, I just get sad from time to time.

Now.

Time: 4:57 pm
Apple: Red delicious
Song: Soul Sista
Thoughts: On homework and pork steaks.
New Happenings:
I am in love with a Stephen.
I am graduating a year and a month from now.
I am bad to the bone.
Joanna and Mark get married two weeks from today.


Boop.

poop

Yeah I said it.

Oh what a week.

I had a presentation with my group this week. We had to create our own community-based program. We decided to do one that focuses on teen pregnancy and the infant mortality rate in Memphis, TN.

So we chose who would be in our groups and I went out on a huge limb...meaning I chose people outside of my usual group. It turned out we were the underdog group. lol. We were 4 girls who have never really taken up a leader role. People even told me they felt bad that all of us were in a group together. Who says that? So we had a lot to prove. There was some difficulty at first and we went through a storming phase. It was crazy for a little bit, but we got ourselves together and got the job done. At the end of our presentation our teacher complimented us on our efforts and said out of the 6 groups that presented we were the best. Seriously, my mouth dropped open.

I once said that I would never again get out of my comfort zone. This was a time when I thought we were going to fail miserably. Now I am saying I am so glad I did. I am proud of us. Very proud.

Always keep your wishful thinking and NEVER stay in your comfort zone. Even if you fail, it is better to take a risk than wonder what could have been. You also take more pride in your success because you truly deserve it and worked hard to earn it.

That's all I have to say about that.

Tornado season has begun.

And they better stay the hell away from me.

So...

Can someone please help me pick out a dress for a wedding I am attending on March 27.

And a dress to wear for Joanna's rehearsal dinner. And some shoes for the bridesmaid dress.

Help!

Thanks.

Cold, but getting warmer.

I am so ready for Spring.

Goals.

I want to run a 5k and not stop.
I want to lose 15 lbs.
I want to go to the beach with a bunch of friends.
I want to cook dinner with my boyfriend. I don't care what it is. As long as he is there.
I want to go on a double date.
I want to start quilling or crocheting.
I want to make my own garden with flowers everywhere.
I want to learn how to play the piano and learn Beatles songs my mom used to play.

Monday. Woo.

This morning wasn't too bad. I got a compliment from a complete stranger about being good looking. lol.

I did a presentation that I was WAY too nervous about. I mean...really. It was 10 minutes. I didn't freak out over a horrible presentation that was an hour long as much as I did today. I even had...you guessed it...a panic attack. Right there in the middle of class AFTER I finished presenting. How dumb. I need to do Yoga or start breathing exercises.

Stephen got an internship and I am proud of him. I wish I could give him a hug.

I am going to go make some peanut butter and hugs cookies. I will send you some Joanners...maybe. Along with the RSVP for your big day.

Later.

Moody.

I just got back from STL.
It was fun. It was great seeing family. I have missed them.
The ride back took for freaking ever. Now I am in not such a good mood.
I will get over it...maybe.

I got to stay in a city house built in the 1880s. It was amazing and I kept thinking how Joanna and Lindsey would love to live in a place like that. Very vintage and beautiful.

I hope this week goes by fast.

Official.

I am happy to be his. We will see what happens.

We didn't plan for this to happen. It has been four years since that day that I ended it. Thinking about someone for four years is probably a sign that it isn't over.

Whats meant to be will happen.

Too much to do.

Papers, assignments, projects, drama within my group...There is just way too much to do this week.

I have to do a project with my friend Maggie on the 24th. We are going to be doing Quilling. Google that shit. I will make each of you a picture and/or card and you will love it forever. :)

Valentines Day is tomorrow. First time in four years I will not be calling it singles awareness day. Things are going great between me and the boy. Will we make it official? We shall see. lol. I am not from Russia so I wont be Russian (get it?)

Love you. Bye.

I get sad sometimes.

It is amazing how much has changed the past year.
It is funny how different people are. People that used to be a big part of your life are no longer there. It is kind of sad.
I need to go to sleep. I have a quiz tomorrow. I have so many assignments due within the next two weeks. I have a group that does not feel like working. I am so overwhelmed and so ready for school to be overwith.

I was thinking...

I used to be able to write poems. I would like to do that again.
They have and Urban Outfitters in Nashville. I just found this out yesterday.
I like people that are easy to get along with.
It is nice being comfortable with people.
I am going to be productive tonight.

Things are going well.

I am pretty happy at this point.
I am pretty sure that I have the sweetest dog (Athena) sitting next to me eating her bone.
I am excited. I get to go to Nashville this weekend and see friends and the boy. Gosh I like him.
Our story is weird, crazy, and lovely all at the same time.
We will see what happens folks.

Today was an amazing day. I will never take for granted what I have. Or try not to.
Tomorrow will be about celebrating a friends birthday. I am excited.
Things are going well.

Cabin Fever.

It is amazing how you grow up and things that used to be important to you, petty things, are not longer important to you.
It is amazing that you can throw away something so pure and wonderful just because you are a stupid kid and you do not know how to accept it.
I am ready for whatever happens and whatever comes my way.
I am going to be happy.
I have spent too long in the shadows, thinking that I will never be happy.

I have a lot to say about many things. Things that I cannot talk about right now.
Hopefully, if it all works out I will tell you in the future.

Woozers.

I went to a Riverkings Hockey game last night. Loved every second of it. I forgot how much I loved the thrill of a Hockey game.

Had Central BBQ...yum.
Today I have done nothing! I don't even have to go to work because of the snow!
That, my friends, is a beautiful thing.

Bundle of Joy.

Something to mark off my list to do before I die: Hold a new born baby.

Her name is Gracyn Ella and she is beautiful.

My weekend.

The boy came into town. I can safely say that I have not had that much fun with a guy in a while. I can be myself around him. We have a history. We know eachother. We both have changed so much, for the good. I am happy. To be continued...

Open your eyes.

I am beginning to see that life really is what you make it.
You choose how you react to situations that come your way.
Happiness does not come easy to anyone and you have to work at it everyday.
I can't believe it took me so long to understand this.

There is going to be a thunderstorm tonight. I am excited.
Love.

Im a B.

Sometimes I can be really mean. Like when I am tired or worried about something. I was rude to my mom tonight. Then she started dishing it back to me. So I said something really crappy. I am a bad daughter. I feel really bad. She is sad all of the time and I wish I could make her happy. I go back to being that stupid teenager that is angry at the world and my mom gets to be the one to hear it all. I am going to stop because it is not cool and she in no way deserves that. I just hope she knows that she is what keeps me together and I love her.

No Motivation

Seriously.
What am I doing?
School is not as demanding this time.
I am wasting the days away.

I miss this boy. I wish he lived closer. We are on the DL for now. haha. The funny thing is you already know.

I love you my friends.

Bananas

This morning...
I woke up late for a car appointment because I was tired.
Then I tripped over Athena and hit my head on the door.
Then my car was iced shut.
It took me twenty minutes to get it thawed out.
I took my car to the dealer, thinking this day is not that bad.
Then I was told it was going to take $2000 to fix my car.
I kept my coolness. Vented to some people, as I am now.
This lady cut me off in traffic and I almost wrecked my sisters car.
I swore a lot.
That was my breakdown.
Then I went on with my day.

I have nothing important to say.
Blah.
Now I too want a perm.

Keep Moving

I love having friends that push me to do different things. It makes me want to get up and go or try something new. Love it.

I am having fun with Joanna, Mark, Jack, and most importantly, Snuggles. I love being here. I think I will move here...someday. Thanks for having me. :)

I have no new news that I would like to share at this point in time.

Just know...Things are going well.

Love.