Time

I got through last week. That is a good thing.
My birthday was great. Even though things didnt go as planned.
It was full of bbq nachos, red velvet cake, and sushi. In that order but spread out. That sounds kinda gross together.
I am going to be living in Paris, TN for two weeks. I will get to see people I have been missing for a while.
Planning a trip to Louisville, at some point. Anyone want to come?
Lost 14lbs, although I have not worked out in 4 days. Lazzzzy.
Fell in love with the show Glee.
Thats about it.

The first step is admitting you have a problem.

I know its pathetic, but I have a facebook problem. I get on it all the time. Even on my phone. I don't even know why. Its not like I am missing something vital or important. People have lived without facebook for years and years and have gotten along fine. The sad thing is it is my connection to the lives of my friends. Without it I wouldn't know who was doing what or what was happening. That is sad. Really sad. Yesterday, I found out one of my dearest friend's father died. He was struggling with Pancreatic Cancer for 8 months. How did I not know that and why did I find out on facebook after the fact? Does that make me a horrible friend? Probably. I feel horrible about it. He was the sweetest man you could ever know. He used to make us breakfast when we had sleep overs and drive us to swim practice. His laugh was one you will never forget. And I will never forget it. He will be greatly missed.

I will kick this habit. I will do better.

Much love.

I see myself...

In a year no where near the person I am today.
I will be at the end of my first field work. Its going to be in Physical Dysfunction. We will see if I survive.
Nothing is as big of a deal as you think it is. People our age are dying in Iraq. Life is just way too short to worry about the petty things.
Disappointment happens. Deal with it.
Its reason to put the people you love down.
I hope everyone has a good day.

Bye.

To tell you the truth.

Happiness takes a lot of work. I used to look at happy people and think that it came so easy to them, but they have worked hard to be optimistic.
I hate having bad feelings and I hate feeling like a bad person.
I dont even really want to talk about it.
This week was just plain bad.
I don't know what to do any more.
Its ok though. I will make it through.
I just have so much to work on.
Happiness, Time management, Thinking about what I say before I say it, Not calling myself stupid or putting myself down, being more assertive, taking on leadership roles, and doing the things I am scared of.
I am tired of self-reflecting. I really wish self improvement would just happen.
Maybe I am saying this because I am exhausted beyond belief.
I just don't know.

nope.

I don't like it when people tell me how to live my life. Thanks.
I saw some friends I have not seen in a while this weekend. It was awesome.
Then again....I saw someone I would much rather not...
It was civil. That is all.
Stephens band played "Just Like Heaven" and it was the best moment ever. Audrey and I danced to it and sang as loud as we could.
I got caught up on How I Met Your Mother. Love it.

I really like to sleep.

Going to the wedding this weekend, but I completely forgot that I promised my parents I would watch the doggies while they were in St. Louis. Oops. I am still going, but will not be able to stay up there as long as I hoped.

Yay! The week is almost over that means the weekend is almost here.
Have a shit ton of school to get through before I can enjoy it though.

I feel good.

I like who I am.
I stand up for myself now. I am proud of myself.
I am going to make it through whatever is thrown at me.
NEVER again will another person make me feel bad about myself.
NEVER again will another person make me feel like I don't deserve to be happy.
I am not ashamed of who I am.

I hope that no one feels sorry for me that I am Agnostic.
I know who I am. I have values. I have love. I have faith and hope and dreams. If you do feel sorry for me, don't tell me. It will just make me sick. I may not follow your God, but I have something to believe in.

WTF.

Today I am making brownies and you can't have any because you suck.
There. I said it.